Just suddenly feel the impulse to blog. Not that im feeling exceptionally emotional all anything. Which is kind of weird and rare. Cos i dun usually feel this way.

Came back from my Vietnam trip but the photos are still not up yet. This explains why i have not blogged about it so far. Wensheng said it was more thrilling than the Taiwan trip we had last year. But i thought otherwise. Overall, i just dislike the weather. The weather really dampened my mood when i was touring the country. N on top of that, I really dislike what happened to Kenneth nearing the end of the trip. He became detached from us and started showing a bit of attitude.
I shall not bad mouth about my fren in this public space. But just want to clarify that he is still a nice friend to me:]

Took awhile to get used to school especially after the 1 semester of no school because of internship and because of the Vietnam trip directly before school starts.
I dropped DV, my art module eventually cos i did not enjoy the lesson at all. I feel inferior inside the class and Siew Hoon was not around to make the lesson more bearable. I see no reason to continue torturing myself further hence dropped it although it is so highly demanded by everyone.
To me, NO LOST AT ALL. hehe.

FYP is stressing me but i continue to procrastinate >.< Tell me how?!?!?
I have to admit that partially the reason is because i dun really enjoy the topic i am doing. It is about analyzing en bloc situation at UE Square. Calculation/investment is totally not my cup of tea. I took it up then was because i want to avoid the trouble of approaching another professor to be my FYP prof. I guess i am like my father too..

Cadence, my tutee is causing me problem too. I can control her better now but she is still not treating my lesson seriously. Generation Z/Strawberry generation is really getting too smart for their own good. They are getting too privileged to see the unprivileged. Therefore, i refuse to donate money to those people on the streets now. They dun even know why they are doing charity! Anyway, my tutee had mocked test in school recently. I seriously doubt she will do well. I suspect my days with her are getting short. Which means my source of income is also disappearing. Oh well. I just hope i can get a better tutee next time. One that will listen to me and treasure my time with him/her.

Just went for session just now. Some people still get on my nerve like usual. But i get to talk to a lot of people today. I get to see the progression of how RSPID had moved. Quite interesting to see batches i had not seen before. Reflection from today:
- I am not a confident speaker and never will be. Regardless of how many times i tell myself before i speak up, to be calm and confident, i can never do it. Therefore, i always admire those people who can speak so well in front of people. Regardless of whether they are just "all-talk-only", but i still think it is a good trait that not everyone can have.
- I agree that session should be more trainee-centric. Although wensheng said we need to care about the volunteers' welfare too, but i think trainees are actually a good source to bond people together. What Sheena and Vina talk about every time we meet usually revolve around our own trainee.
- Only Chen Sze recognised me as her teacher, but not Joanne. lol. Not that i mind. I am usually the silent teacher for Joanne.
- I love my silly boy a lot. Seeing all the couples gathered today, i realised that it is really a very fortunate thing that i have my silly boy with me today too. Someone to disturb. Someone whom i know so dearly. Someone whom i can call mine. Someone whom i can call as n when i liked. I hope silly boy feels the same too. Especially when we have been together for 2 year + 9 months:]

Jia u silly gal! Path seemed tough ahead. But have a little bit more faith in yourself and i am sure you can craft a peace of sky for yourself:] 

Teaching a p4 gal English and Maths now. A new challenge i took up recently.
Due to my rusty primary school knowledge, especially english, i was super stress by the notion that i needed to teach a student.
I was stress by how i had to handle a young gal. I was stress by whether the parent would have high expectation from me. But fortunate, all this worries to naught. Thankfully!!

The little gal is relatively adorable. Although her parents shower her with loads of material goods, she is unaware of the privilege. Her love for animals, especially dogs, covers all other material privileges that she has. I think it is because of these innocent love for another living things that made this gal less bratty than it would have appeared.

Having been teaching her for 1 week already. I hope she continues her enthusiasm for my lesson. N hopefully by the end of the year, she will produce improved grades that is definitely a sign that my hard work and hers, have definitely paid off.

Hopefully i can take up 1 more student. Hopefully someone out there will let me teach him/her math!! haha. If not, i would have more sleepless night to come.

My dream to BTO still seem very far but the motivation to work towards it makes me feel like im really living for my future. Together with silly boy, I hope to create a family. A family i can call my home and my entire world.

I need to earn more and spend less.. go go go!!

I know. Im lazy again. I seriously swear i wanted to type abt the freaking cold weather n routine lifestyle i had when i was in China immediately when i came back. BUT inertia too high. So i shall skip tt entire part n move on to my working life. which is happening now. DREADS.

Working at Pb now. It is a Mechanical n Electrical Consulting Firm. Totally mind blowing when i reached there. The things tt they do there is totally foreign n scary. BUT fortunately i need not handle those complex circuit drawing but just need to understand them. 

So it's basically going back to sch just tt i dun get to laugh w my frens, sleep during lesson, play w my hp(animal farm. hee hee) blatantly or just do my own stuff when i have nothing to do. 

My mentors there are not very willing to teach me really chim stuff as they know ill be leaving after 6 months. So i dun get to handle the important things. Which in a way is good. But it gets really difficult to kill time when they dun even want to bother abt u. 

 This is a problem for most of my fren doing intern at this moment. Difficult to let time pass. Nothing to do. Boring~~~

So the key to doing intern is to pretend n act busy. Find ur own schedule by including long breakfast time, toilet break n look forward to lunch n go home time. lol.

Oh. but e really happy thing abt being in pb is tt i get 2 really nice n caring seniors. Irwin n Soon Chye:]]] Really thanks to them, i adapt very well n quickly into pb. Especially Irwin, cos he is in the same division as me and we are under the same mentor. He really teach me a lot of stuff:]]]

Beams. All my bad impression of him abt leaving IGC behind in the middle of last year is gone. Happy happy.

Oh. i found this at the toilet cubicle n find it very amusing. lol.

Silly boy dun seem to be very happy at his work place. But fortunately he has better intern frens than me. I hope his work will become better n more enjoyable w loads n loads of work to do. hee hee.

Love u my dear. Really miss spending a lot a lot of time w u. Now we can only meet once or twice every week. Oh well.

Went for Jeremy's b-day celebration at Downtown East last last sun =_='
The photos were only uploaded on facebook these few days.
Blame it on the efficiency of the guys!!

Tot it'd be quite boring cos none of the gals in my class wanted to join me 4 a free dinner. heh. So i dragged Xue Li down to join me:]]]
Many thanks XueLi !!! 4 accompanying me the entire night. Know u cant eat the BBQ food and u know ZERO human over there hence im REALLY grateful.!! Thank you!! Muacks:]]]

Surprisingly, i enjoyed myself:]]] Talked to random group of ppl. heh.
N i get to know yi sheng better. Spent most of my time crapping w him. He's really a nice guy to talk to. No vulgarities. No rubbish or nonsensical stuff. Ahaha..

WAS SO FREAKING HOT!!!
Sat in front of the fire the entire night. Cos there's a group of very gentlemenly army boys who stole MY bench!!! annoyed. Was sitting there initially. Then they came to join me and started talking abt all the army stuff which im clueless abt. Got bored so i went to pick up XueLi frm the entrance. But when i was back, MY bench was STOLEN!! Rahhhh....

So All the photos taken were so HOT!! Hee hee..
I was sweating through n through.
Haiz..

I like this pic the best. But no idea y i look so short. Ok. Maybe it's just because yi sheng is so tallll... xp

My cheeks are a little flushed red. Thanks to the HOT bbq pitt and the 18% alcohlic drink n a can of Calsburg. im usually a very good gal. Abstinence to all alcoholic drinks. Yet no idea y tt very fateful night, i just feel like indulging myself in some alcohol. Maybe it's because there's an Alcoholic beside me! hee hee. XueLi tt party gal. Bleah. U bad influence lo. xp

On top of this, i just got my acceptance letter frm NTU. Information engineering n media. It is my first choice so i have no complain. Although i have ZERO idea what is the course abt, im still really excited to enter n start studying it:]]]
So does tt mean i'll be entering NTU? I guess more or less yes. cos my first choice for NUS is industrial design n i wasnt shortlisted for the interview:[[[ was really sad this tue when the list of short listed students were uploaded on the internet n i didnt see my name on it even though i scrolled through the entire list 4 times!!:[[[
Boo hoo.. But fortunately i got my acceptance letter frm NTU on tt same day i was rejected by the Arts department in NUS. So being the optimistic me, i viewed it as a path chosen by fate so tt i can survive the future. I was rejected cos tt path is not for me n a better course will come along. I hope this theory is true. But if it's not. I'd make it true. i'd survive my Uni life.

Sis said if i'm entering NTU, living in a hostel will be more convenient 4 me cos travelling 2 n fro frm home to sch will take abt 2 hours. xian. i was initially quite against living in a hall cos of the the activities i must participate in to continue my stay in Year 2 and the cost.
Daddy will definitely make lots of noise once i graduate since i spend more than my 2 sisters. Extra expenses will always make my dad become an aunty uncle (naggy!!) Rahhs.. Because of money, i had a headache the entire day

Furthermore, Dawn asked me to join her on a free n easy 10days trip to Taiwan. Dawn is a Bio teacher frm St nick!! OMG. So freaking weird n random!! Im not even close to her!! Just tt when i was growing beansprouts 4 her bio classes a few weeks ago, we got slightly closer such tt our conversation can at least last for 30 min now -_-''
Im hesitant. should i reject her? But if i reject her, means tt the trip will most likely be cancelled. She seemed so enthu abt the whole trip. Fair enough. Her initinary seemed really cool. heading to the rural area of Taiwan instead of the usual tourist attractions. but the company wise....

My contract w st nick is ending soon. By the end of April. Quite sad cos i've grown fond to the ppl there. Auntie Siew Lian n Mdn Soh. The teachers are beginning to trust me w the preparation of their lessons n start making small conversation w me. Leaving will be quite saddening cos those days at the sci lab are soooo fun n enjoyable. Even though im working, i had fun, i played, i battled, i learned n i had freedom. Politics were minimal n all the aunties treated me really well:[[[ Haiz. But i must move on. Changes are the only constant in life.
I hope my next job will be as enjoyable as my previous one.

Have many lobangs now.
Corina urging me to join her at YMCA. Admin job. 6.5 an hour
Jia jia invited me to Paragon. Customer service. 6.5 an hour
Sing's father's office. Admin. 6.5 an hour
Tution. I'd be paid like WOW

Tempted to join jia jia n maybe pick up some tuitions like her. Hmmm... Waiting for ger to be back frm Taiwan. I promise her i'll go work w her.
A promise tt i meant to keep.