I believe in self satisfaction.
Yet, I get jealous easily.
Can this two come hand in hand?
I wonder.
Looking through facebook always makes me envy those ppl who are born with a silver spoon, who do not have to get stress over not being smart enough, who is loved by the whole world, who has a pretty face that makes all guys swoon over you..
The list seemed to be never ending...
Is this a girl thing? Or is it just me?
Is other girls envy of my current status, just like how im envy of theirs..
I wonder.
Do you think pure hard work can get me those things other people possessed?
Im not trying to snatch from them. I just want to rightfully gain them and relish the moments where i can actually possess and enjoy those wonders..
But currently at this moment, i feel that im very very very far away from getting those wonders.
OTOKEH?!?!?!?
Busy at work these few days. Which is good.
I like the adrenaline rush.
I feel motivated to go to work.
I do not feel so guilty submitting the timesheet.
I hope this adrenaline rush can be consistent till nearer the end of my IA.
Im going to take 1 day MC to extract my wisdom teeth tmr. It has been hurting for 1 week already.
Im scared. I keep remembering the pain i experience the previous time i extract it and my legs will go wobbly at the thoughts of it. I hope all will go well tmr..
Wish me luck!
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Thursday, March 28, 2013
Monday, March 4, 2013
I finally finished 7 weeks of IA.
The first few weeks of work was bearable.
But now, it is getting a bit suffocating.
Reason being: I dunno how to handle my mentor!! My mentor is an ah beng. Like seriously.
There's nothing wrong being one!! Im not discriminating him or anything (and im in no position to discriminate him esp when im the one working under him) But in a work place, i prefer someone whom i can talk "intelligently" to esp when it is something related to my sch stuff, to my work stuff. My idea of funny is not what he finds funny, therefore, i often find myself mumbling to myself or saying the wrong stuff to him.
ok. I think i know the problem. The problem is that i cannot communicate with him.
The company im in is an MNC. I need to fill up a timesheet every week stating the projects im handling every hour in the week. THIS IS SO RIDICULOUS!!! what do they expect an intern student to handle!! N ESP WHEN THEY DUN EVEN GIVE US PROJECTS TO HANDLE!!! im dying because of this time sheet.
I feel guilty every friday filling up tt form. Its eating me up as i know im in the wrong for not doing work but yet at the same time, i cannot do anything abt it because they are the one not giving me anything. I hate this helpless feeling im sensing every day at work:[[[
Saded.
Silly boy not being very sympathetic abt my situation AT ALL. rahhh...
i concluded. I shall earn enough $$ n be a boss next time. lala..
Silly boy calling me. I shall continue next time. I think ill have a lot of whining to do for the rest of my 15 weeks:[[[
The first few weeks of work was bearable.
But now, it is getting a bit suffocating.
Reason being: I dunno how to handle my mentor!! My mentor is an ah beng. Like seriously.
There's nothing wrong being one!! Im not discriminating him or anything (and im in no position to discriminate him esp when im the one working under him) But in a work place, i prefer someone whom i can talk "intelligently" to esp when it is something related to my sch stuff, to my work stuff. My idea of funny is not what he finds funny, therefore, i often find myself mumbling to myself or saying the wrong stuff to him.
ok. I think i know the problem. The problem is that i cannot communicate with him.
The company im in is an MNC. I need to fill up a timesheet every week stating the projects im handling every hour in the week. THIS IS SO RIDICULOUS!!! what do they expect an intern student to handle!! N ESP WHEN THEY DUN EVEN GIVE US PROJECTS TO HANDLE!!! im dying because of this time sheet.
I feel guilty every friday filling up tt form. Its eating me up as i know im in the wrong for not doing work but yet at the same time, i cannot do anything abt it because they are the one not giving me anything. I hate this helpless feeling im sensing every day at work:[[[
Saded.
Silly boy not being very sympathetic abt my situation AT ALL. rahhh...
i concluded. I shall earn enough $$ n be a boss next time. lala..
Silly boy calling me. I shall continue next time. I think ill have a lot of whining to do for the rest of my 15 weeks:[[[
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Terrible experience this whole week.
Went out for Yuki Yaki buffet on wed w the RSPID ppl after much probing frm chong tiang. rahh.. was quite unwilling to go at first cos had not eaten home cook food 4 quite some time and many of the freshies are not going 4 it. erms. or rather the few tt im closer to.
So was forcefully being tagged along everywhere by chong tiang. rahh..
After buffet, the boys(Kim Leng, Han Siang, Jing Shen n Chong Tiang) want to play bowling. As a very nice junior, i decided to accompany them while wait 4 them to send me home. muahaha..
Played one round as Kim Leng was being REALLY persistent in making me play.. Oh well. I manage to hit 9pins n the funny thing was tt only the center pin didnt manage to get hit. lol.
Kim Leng said i didnt use enough strength:[[[ sad.
But tt's not the highlight of my most unfortunate week. D:
Once i bent down to throw the ball, the stain on my white pants was being exposed to the 3 boys at the back. OMG. SO EMBARRASSING!!
I really wanted them to go home without me or maybe just leave me somewhere to settle it myself. But as big boys, they insisted on following me everywhere, looking for a cheap n nice pants for me to change into. In a way, im really touched by their action. Although it's quite weird for 4 guys to follow me do shopping. Ahaha.. But u can really tell tt boys really do not shop much:p
Because of this, han siang kept using it to threaten me. Rahh.. VCAMP!! HAN SIANG!! ahahah..
*killer eyes
Then on thu, i went to extract my wisdom tooth in the morning. The whole process only lasted for 30min. I concluded tt besides skill, a good dentist must have loads of brute strength too. ahaha..
Cos apparently once the anesthetic starts flowing into ur veins, the dentist can just use all his strength to pull out the tooth n the patient will feel no pain AT ALL! D:
I think because of tt, once the anesthetic wears off, u will start feeling it. PAINFUL TO THE MAX!! OMG. unbearable till i teared a bit. It was so painful tt even though i was super hungry, i couldnt even eat something better than liquid food. D:
Then on fri morning, i was admitted to the hospital at Tan Tock Seng. D: Apparently im allergic to the pain killer drug. It causes massive reaction to my eyes. My whole eyes seemed to sink and disappear among the 2 pieces of "fatty" eye lids. Cant imagine e shock when i woke up at 3am in the morning to realise tt my eyes have disappeared!! D: i look hideous.
Was put on drip 4 4 hours. I hate the needle. Especially when the needle has to stay in ur flesh for 4 hours. D: The redness went down but the swelling did not. I still look hideous when i left the hospital for home. Rahh..
An unforgettable experience. But asked me if i want it again. erms. No thanks. I seriously have enough "fun" 4 the entire week tt can last me forever. D:
Went out for Yuki Yaki buffet on wed w the RSPID ppl after much probing frm chong tiang. rahh.. was quite unwilling to go at first cos had not eaten home cook food 4 quite some time and many of the freshies are not going 4 it. erms. or rather the few tt im closer to.
So was forcefully being tagged along everywhere by chong tiang. rahh..
After buffet, the boys(Kim Leng, Han Siang, Jing Shen n Chong Tiang) want to play bowling. As a very nice junior, i decided to accompany them while wait 4 them to send me home. muahaha..
Played one round as Kim Leng was being REALLY persistent in making me play.. Oh well. I manage to hit 9pins n the funny thing was tt only the center pin didnt manage to get hit. lol.
Kim Leng said i didnt use enough strength:[[[ sad.
But tt's not the highlight of my most unfortunate week. D:
Once i bent down to throw the ball, the stain on my white pants was being exposed to the 3 boys at the back. OMG. SO EMBARRASSING!!
I really wanted them to go home without me or maybe just leave me somewhere to settle it myself. But as big boys, they insisted on following me everywhere, looking for a cheap n nice pants for me to change into. In a way, im really touched by their action. Although it's quite weird for 4 guys to follow me do shopping. Ahaha.. But u can really tell tt boys really do not shop much:p
Because of this, han siang kept using it to threaten me. Rahh.. VCAMP!! HAN SIANG!! ahahah..
*killer eyes
Then on thu, i went to extract my wisdom tooth in the morning. The whole process only lasted for 30min. I concluded tt besides skill, a good dentist must have loads of brute strength too. ahaha..
Cos apparently once the anesthetic starts flowing into ur veins, the dentist can just use all his strength to pull out the tooth n the patient will feel no pain AT ALL! D:
I think because of tt, once the anesthetic wears off, u will start feeling it. PAINFUL TO THE MAX!! OMG. unbearable till i teared a bit. It was so painful tt even though i was super hungry, i couldnt even eat something better than liquid food. D:
Then on fri morning, i was admitted to the hospital at Tan Tock Seng. D: Apparently im allergic to the pain killer drug. It causes massive reaction to my eyes. My whole eyes seemed to sink and disappear among the 2 pieces of "fatty" eye lids. Cant imagine e shock when i woke up at 3am in the morning to realise tt my eyes have disappeared!! D: i look hideous.
Was put on drip 4 4 hours. I hate the needle. Especially when the needle has to stay in ur flesh for 4 hours. D: The redness went down but the swelling did not. I still look hideous when i left the hospital for home. Rahh..
An unforgettable experience. But asked me if i want it again. erms. No thanks. I seriously have enough "fun" 4 the entire week tt can last me forever. D:
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