Miserable day today. I cried in front of my boss.
Reason being:
My Logbook.

I do not know the requirement for the logbook. Im insecure about wat i have written inside it. Its making me stress. I need to meet my professor whom i have no idea what she is like. Its making me stress. I know im wasting my boss time by burdening him with all the minor issues. Im apologetic abt it and wasting his time is making me stress.

All this stress factors was worsen by the fact that my boss did not respect the hard work i had put into my logbook. I dunno whether its the "MNC way" of expressing themselves. They make jokes abt everything while hiding meanings behind it. They laugh at basically everything which sometimes i dun even find it funny. And the ironic thing is that i need to laugh along with them even though i do not see the humour.
Im real. Not fake. I cant handle their way of doing things. im abt to give up. and actually, i had half given up.

After noticing me crying, he started putting sugar on all the things he did n say. I really feel like smashing him.
Not gaining respect from the people working under him does not give him the right not to respect my hard work. N especially when he was the one who was emphasising so much abt it during the internal meeting. Such double standard is definitely distasteful.

And because of this, i postpone my timesheet with Thomas. I seriously cannot handle 2 troublesome people in a day. This also means that my Monday will not be a fresh start. Saded.


Was discussing abt silly boy's brother going overseas to study law in the car just now. He told me quite a while ago but at that point, after hearing it, i was quite angry. My first impulse was to shout at his immature brother. But i controlled. Knowing that silly boy n i will just end up quarreling abt the same issue again.
So the conclusion after so long was to get a bank loan of 40k to travel to some foreign land (England) to study law which i dun even know if he is capable of.
Knowing my silly boy well enough, i know he will try to help his brother clear his debt next time. I foresee myself slogging hard in the near future. A BIG BIG BIG SIGH...
My dream of having a simple life... poosh.....